5.16.2009

Tid.Bit.4

My mind is saying "Hahahahahahaha! You're such a dweeb!" So, yeah, I guess it would help if I would explain why I'm laughing at myself. Okay, so since I'm interested in a person who does not take initiative...grr, I have to usually step up to the plate first. I sooo do not like doing that. Ugh. Haha. The words were practically on the tip of my tongue. We were saying our goodbyes and I say, "Wait...um...are you...." *silence* "Um...nevermind."
"Are you sure?", says he.
"Uh, yeah.", I replied.
AHHHH! I blew it.
In my mind, I was saying: "Noooo, no what Im trying to say is are you at least a bit happy that I may be returning? Aren't you excited that we are going to look for apartments next week? Do you even miss me at all? Am I the only one?"

Sigh man, big fat SIGH. Things would be sooo much easier if he would just read the signs. Isn't it obvious?
I have the urge to call back, but as the seconds pass the possibility of me doing that decreases...
I'm such a dweeb.
Haha...hm. =\

6 comments:

Rai said...

Uhhh I know what you mean.
But with Martin, I tell him everything... good or bad.

You have to speak up and be honest no matter what. You don't want to have unrealistic expectations and seeing one thing and assuming he's seeing the same... when in actuality he may not be.

.rawkii said...

You right. Thats why I want to go ahead and ask. I just hate putting myself out there. I need to know though. So I will have to man-up and do the Nike thing.

Rai said...

Text me on how it goes. :]
Are you both "OFFICIAL"...

Shantae said...

Don't you hate that! They're completely clueless and we have bad nerves. I swear ...if we didn't have to be the ones to man up all the time, things wouldn't get done!

T said...

ahhh...an all too familiar feeling...always wondering if they feel it too. lol. I just wrote a poem about that actually, about a minute ago. good luck. =)

.rawkii said...

Shantae: Ugh, yes! Exactly...

T: Haha. Yep, you're right.