5.11.2009

Mother's.Day

    I'm sooo glad I am alive to spend another Mother's Day with my Mom and Grandma. Even if it is bittersweet. They are awesome. Right now, I am ever so thankful for the few loved ones who thought of me. I was a little hesitant to go to church today. I mean, it had been a while since I've been and I wanted to go. But on Mother's Day, it gets rough. I held back the tears, just as I am now. 
    I miss my kid. I miss the kicks to let me know he was here with me. I hate I wasn't granted the chance to hear him laugh, cry...just to see him open his eyes. I hate that I didn't appreciate those moments with him, until it was too late. It wasn't in God's plans. He is in a better place, but I can't help but to wonder...
Am I the reason you are not here?
For that, I don't think I could ever forgive myself.

Remember: 
Appreciate every moment. 
Every second of it.

3 comments:

Rai said...

Awww. =[
Everything happens for a reason, we may not understand it then... but I truly believe everything does.

God, will give you another chance for that to happen.

JustcallmebRi said...

Your baby boy is watching over you... You will see him one day but in the mean time don't blame yourself. God has his reasons, we never know what they are but we have to except them and remember our past but move on with our present.

Smooches hun

bRi

.rawkii said...

Thanks ladies. =]