Boo.Season

Yeah, its getting cold. My friends and I were just talking about how its about time to get boo'd up for winter. Girls shivering, dudes choosing...vice versa, la-di-da-di. We were just joking around, but actually now that I think about it...its kind of true. Ever had that dude(s), whom during the summer was so sometime-y (or summertime) and now here they come out of the blue, trying to get things right. I'm sure some girls seem to work on the same schedule.

Yet, this is around the time I'm so tired of the games played. I seem to throw the towel in and get comfortable with the single status, then BOOM! Here comes dude, seeming to know all the right things to say, do the things to make me think, "Well just maybe..."

Well, I'm not trying to be just someone's hand-warmers. I will admit, I've allowed myself to be swayed for the sake of not being alone. I think that is just what I need thought. Enjoy my autumn to myself and figure out what I really want, so when it comes around, I won't miss it.

Whats.Going.On

As you can imagine, a lot has occurred since my last post. To keep myself from ramblin', I will limit myself bullet points and spare you the details, unless...you want the details. ;]

• Mr. N and I broke up, for good. Don't be sad, its a good thing. A beautiful thing. It seriously got to the point where I didn't like being around him when he was sober. True story. I seriously think we are both happy apart. Maybe after some time, we can be cool again. Not together, cool. I kind of wish we never took it up a level and left good enough alone.
• As for my current love life, have my friends tell it and they say I have a boo for each 'need.' I say we all are just friends, thats my story and I'm sticking to it.
  
• I moved in an apartment with one of my previous roommates. It's going great, no problemos so far, Thank the Heavens!
• School has begun, it was smooth sailing, but it kind of kicked in this week. Sometimes sadness comes in the form of a Japanese quiz. =[
  
• Work is going great, I work in the mailroom now. I have new-found respect for postal workers.
  

So yeah, I think that clears it right up. Sigh, there is so much I want to tell you guys, but I don't want to over-bear you. Hm, so what has been going on in your lives? How was your summer? How is school going? Are you happy, sad, angry, hungry...? What? Haha.

Long.Time.No.See

Yeah, I have been majorly slacking on my posts here. I've become all too consumed into Tumblr. Even though Tumblr is great, I miss this place. I can't really type it all out like I can here [and expect people to read it. Let alone, give me feedback.] I missed you guys. Klash left a comment on my last post a few days ago and it made me feel good. Nothing like getting that e-mail notification letting you know someone cares. Haha.
So, I know I've said it once before that I will do better. This time, I'm not going to proclaim it. I'll let my future actions [in the form of posts] speak for me. =]

Don't think I totally forgot about you all either, I do read up on your blogs every once in while.
Later you gals/guys!

Relation.Ship

Lately, I have been wondering what happened to the 'relation' that was suppose to be on our ship? I really don't see the point or purpose of our relationship. Things are not adding up. I talk to Mr. N maybe once every week or so. I'm not exaggerating. We had talked about this because this had concerned me for a while. He just told me that he thought I would understand; that is just how he is and he doesn't mean to come across as inconsiderate. He doesn't want us to grow tired of each other by hanging out all the time and that he would let me know if he didn't want to be with me anymore. Immediately after, communication between us imporved, but it has quickly sunk to an all-time low.
So what? I'm just suppose to be obligated to this so-called relationship until he grows tired of me. I really don't see what he is getting out of this. Meanwhile, I go to other guys in my life to receive all the things that he fails to supply. I shouldn't have to do that. Furthermore, if I am turning to others to bring me conversation, comfort, laughter, etc...who is he turning to? Most importantly, why am I not bothered by the idea that he maybe he is?
If these aren't red flags, I don't know what is. Why is he not bothered? Why would he want to keep me along? What is the point? Why is it hard for me to just end it? Put this relationship out of its misery cause it is suffering.

Mommy.and.Me

Right now, I am currently on a weekend out with my Mom. We decided to go and get a hotel room for two nights and we have been shopping like crazy. I tired to be conservative and not make her buy too much for me. She is paying for my first month of rent when I move in my apartment at the end of this month. Yes! I got an apartment! =] However, today we came across some nice deals. I mean niceeeeeeee!
I usually shop for the winter and fall during the summer. You will discover some good finds. Especially when the school year is near, a lot of stores will be having sales to clear room for new merchandise. Like I got a peacoat for the low today! I was so hyped. The real excitement was a New York & Co. They were having at storewide 70% markdown sale. Yes. My mom and I spent around 3 hours. We checked out and before we got out the store we found more things and made a second purchase. I wish I had some photos of all my purchases. That would took some time...maybe later.
Besides all that. It feels really good to spend time with my mom. I realzed that we have really become closer over the past few years. I use to think we were sooo different. Its crazy how much you come to know as you get older.