5.02.2009

Changes

I know, I haven't updated in a while. I have been going through a lot in the last few days. Trying to study for finals, figure out moving out details, deciding where I'm going to go to college, and, of course, finances. A WHOLE LOT! I tell you, I was stressing to the point of tears Wednesday night. It seemed like everything was falling on me, too much weight. I will have to admit it was my fault. I should have taken care of things better, I guess.
So basically, like my Mom said, I was "at a crossroads." She asked, "Without thinking about money, where do you wanna be?" She said I could take my time and think about it, but I already knew my answer. So, I will be transferring back to my previous school. I was wayyy more involved there, the people were friendlier, and the surroundings is better. Plus, its cheaper! I know, I shouldn't let money decide where I go. I mean, I can't tell you how many times I've been told that, but...what does that really mean? Especially when I have to basically pay for it myself. Of course, money will be a deciding factor. The money my mom saved was soaked up this semester, times are hard, and she has done so much for me [and my sister.]
I've prayed about this and I believe it is a good decision. I came here to be sure I wasn't missing out on anything. I came, I saw...I wasn't missing a thing. Time for me to go back, well, get back to the other track. Even though a lot of questions have been answered there is one that is really resonating...
"What about Mr. N and I?"

7 comments:

dyanna said...

I like your blog.I'm waiting for your new posts.

Rai said...

Money should be a reason about doing things. If you can't afford it, you can't do it.

Aw, have you told Nick?! =[

.rawkii said...

dyanna: Thanks. Hope you enjoy. =]

Twinnie: That's what I'm thinking, but I know they want me to be happy. Gotta love family.

Yeah, I talked to him that night about it. Haven't touched on it since. I really don't want to bring it up with his birthday coming up soon and all...

Shantae said...

Your mom seems like a very wise woman. That was an excellent way of putting things in perspective! I may have to apply that notion to my own happenings. Glad you figured things out and relieved yourself of some stress. Cause stress can be a bad son of a b!

.rawkii said...

Yeah, I've learned to actually listen to what she says. Haha. Thanks, I'm glad I did too. That jive was driving me over the edge.

Jervis said...

i wish u luck

.rawkii said...

Thanks