5.06.2009

And.The.Beat.Goes.On

    If I could, I would pull out the old school record and put the needle down to The Whispers "And The Beat Goes On." I mean, I have to admit... I was a little hurt that he didn't even want to try, but eh...it happens. In the end, I think it will be for the best. Its just, it made me feel like he felt I wasn't even worth the try. What is weird is, now, it seems like he is making me the bad person. Just cause I was willing to break it off now, instead of becoming more attached and waiting until I was about to get in the car for home. Why wait, when his decision was already made? I guess, he wanted to "pretend it wasn't happening" til after his birthday, Thursday. I didn't see the point, it was already out there...shoot "admit it, you did it." That's life though. You have to make some hard decisions. Hm, I will miss him though. I really will. 
"I might as well get over the blues. Just like fishing in the ocean, there'll always be someone new."
In Other News...
N.B. is coming into town Thursday. It has been a while since I mentioned him. Its just a lot happened before I even began this blog and its a tad tiring to try to totally fill you all in. To sum it up, he is a cool guy with nice style, like Mr. Bentley mixed with Common. Haha. We were talking once upon a time, but I just felt it was too good to be true. He was so popular and I didn't think I was his type, I didn't get why he was into me. I went looking for "the catch", made the mistake of asking around and listening to word of mouth and then we got a tad distant. Two weeks or so ago, I learned that his words were true [refer to vlog 1]. It was too late, or so I thought... I can't wait to see him. I love how he makes me feel like the most special person in the word. Even in my most bum-y of attire and just washed hair, he makes me feel so beautiful. Tehe. *blush* Don't worry I won't make him the rebound or anything, but I do plan to enjoy being in his company. 
As for the future, well we'll just have to see... 

4 comments:

Rai said...

Aw, I am here if you need me.
It made sense to let it go now then right when you leave.

He's probably hurt and doesn't know how to say that without making you the "bad guy".
Hate when males do that junk! Grr!

When do you head back home?

JustcallmebRi said...

Oh Blah! Boys can be sooo stupid at times.. But girly youra pretty girl there is always someone better than the last. So stay strong and confident and know that out with the old and in with the new.

Hope everything is going well!

bRi

.rawkii said...

Twinnie: Thanks Rai. See, I'm glad I'm not the only one who sees it that way. I mean, I guess he can be hurt, but he was the one who basically ended it. Ugh.
I want to get this straight. I want to at least end of good terms, if nothing else.
I will probably head back home Monday.

Bri: Haha. I've been saying that all week. "Boys are soooo stuuuuupid." [Just like that. Haha.] Thanks ma'am. Its just a blow though.
Everything else is going well. Hope the same for you. =]

Shantae said...

Ehhh ..that's how men are unfortunately. They're pride won't let them show hurt so they act all nonchalant about it. Then when things really don't go their way they wanna blame it on you. Punks!