1.365

First Pic of the New Year and for my 365-project. Mr. N and my huge arm. Haha. Is this forshadowing of more of him this year? Eh, who knows.
I must say, I enjoyed spending most of the new year with him. After you let the dust settle, you start to see things you haven't before. I feel like I have a better bond with him now than when we were in a relationship. I like where we are now, so I'm in no rush to change it.
As for my huge arm, today I started my spring break boot-camp. Hopefully that will change.

Looking.Back

I was just going through the my archives. It amazes me how different or set apart I feel from the person I was just a few months ago. Most things are the same, but it's funny...some things aren't.

All that energy I spent in those guys: [The Baller, Mr. N, B.D., etc.] was it really worth it? It was a lesson to be learned and that is the best I can come up with.

Now, I'm at a place where I'm trying to become content with being single and well, alone. I tell you, sometimes I have to go as far as deleting numbers so I won't fold in and call someone. Someone who I want to bring warmth and company... I do this because, most cases, they only bring cold shoulders and regret.

There are some new faces to the battlefield, which I shall introduce later. None which have reached a new record and I'm not allowing shortcuts. The advice my older cousin gave me this weekend has been ringing in my ears. He said, "You're a beautiful girl and thats a gift and a curse. Dudes will try to make you settle...

...Don't settle."

Sorry for 2009

This is myyyyy sorry foooorrrrr 2009... *record scratch*

Well, at least for the second half of the year. I have been slackinnnng. Yeah, I know. I have good intentions to stay committed to this blog, but school and all the other factors of my life have become a massive task. I'm sure you all live busy lives and find time to post. So clearly, I have no excuse. Eh, I've been neglecting my tumblr as well.

I decided to try this whole "Do better" act again. Since the admins at my job have block all my usual distractions, I'm going to use that time to study (yeah, right), read, and post here. Sounds good?

Great!

Boo.Season

Yeah, its getting cold. My friends and I were just talking about how its about time to get boo'd up for winter. Girls shivering, dudes choosing...vice versa, la-di-da-di. We were just joking around, but actually now that I think about it...its kind of true. Ever had that dude(s), whom during the summer was so sometime-y (or summertime) and now here they come out of the blue, trying to get things right. I'm sure some girls seem to work on the same schedule.

Yet, this is around the time I'm so tired of the games played. I seem to throw the towel in and get comfortable with the single status, then BOOM! Here comes dude, seeming to know all the right things to say, do the things to make me think, "Well just maybe..."

Well, I'm not trying to be just someone's hand-warmers. I will admit, I've allowed myself to be swayed for the sake of not being alone. I think that is just what I need thought. Enjoy my autumn to myself and figure out what I really want, so when it comes around, I won't miss it.